Monday, September 1, 2014

that gratitude tag


I was recently tagged in one of those "what are you grateful for?" things on Facebook. I don't usually do things like that because I'm too busy being cooler than everyone, skipping school and smoking cigs in my leather jacket, but gratitude is actually something that has been coming up quite a bit in my life lately and I thought eh, what the hell. It's good to share good things sometimes. Also, I wanted to upload a video today but didn't feel like doing any of the parts after "film video" so, yeah...I'm grateful that I had the idea to make this a gratitude post! One down! Hot damn! But for real though, the spiritual principle of gratitude is basically a "Krissy, shut the fuck up" smack in the face (albeit a gentle one). It completely changes my perspective when I'm trapped in self-obsession and just generally being a whiny little bitch. When I can actually remember to appreciate the things in my life that make my life worth living (i.e., healthy, functional body, or, getting to experience what life outside of the bathroom I used to spend 20 hours a day smoking crack in, feels like), it makes it really hard to spend so much time and energy being pissed that someone is taking up too much of the sidewalk (actually no, that is infuriating THERE ARE LANES! Abide them! But you know what I'm saying). So yeah, I realize I'm not totally following the rules, but...I already wrote it so there's no going back now!

I am grateful for:

1. WEEGEE SUE!!!!! Those of you that know me know that I am OBSESSED with my dog. In fact, people who have had the misfortune of simply mentioning the word "dog" in my presence are often forced to endure an 80-photo slideshow of her sleeping, yawning, or otherwise being generally adorable. But seriously, look at this proud motherfucking beast!


LOOK AT HER!!!!! What is she doing?? Just casually staring me down, mid-jazz hands, nips a-blazin'! Weegee is basically the world's tiniest, most flamboyant unicorn in this picture. She is quite unmistakably my dog: she sleeps late, hates loud noises, and becomes socially anxious in large crowds of people, an unfortunate trait I noticed immediately upon taking her to a street fair in my neighborhood, where her dog defenses for some reason trained her body to tremble violently while expelling tufts of fur into the atmosphere at an alarming rate, perhaps attempting to formulate some sort of decoy dog for passersby to point at, allowing her now hairless and even more vulnerable body to slink away unnoticed I DON'T KNOW! She's not as smart as us, you guys, she is but a lowly beast! We left immediately, which is fine because I refuse to pay $3 for 5 deep-fried Oreo's when I only want one! Those things don't keep! Anyhow, Weegee is awesome. She requires almost no maintenance, is super snuggly, and works as a natural man repeller, a fantastic aid when walking while female, because I think it's safe to say that at least several times a week most women run into this guy, regardless of the time of day, neighborhood, what you look like, or happen to be wearing (they're everywhere, it doesn't matter, it's not your fault, they're just too stupid...).


I love my Weegee Sue. She teaches me how to be a responsible human, shows me what unconditional love looks like, and sometimes falls off the bed and I just laugh and laugh and laugh. Also, this:

2. YouTube! I'm pretty sure the reason I'm late to work everyday is due to the fact that I stay up until all hours of the night searching "weekly tarot reading Capricorn 2014". I am absolutely positive that YouTube is the reason it takes me 7 hours to type 1000 words as that's exactly what happened (is happening-this post ain't written yet!) today (and every day).There are three very distinct motivators that lead me in my YouTube searches: 

-astrology
-animal birthing videos
-awesome women lady blogs

I have a regular "astrology guy" that I consult on a weekly basis. Let me rephrase...I have THREE astrology guys (and five girls) that I consult on a weekly basis. They all basically say the same thing, but through these people's knowledge of the placement of the planets in relation to the sun and moon I am fully able to neglect all responsibility and intuition on my own part, allowing them to determine what kind of week I'll have, what kind of jobs to quit, when to move to an entirely different city, and when not to pick up the phone when my mom calls (never again, Saturn in Scorpio! FOOL ME ONCE!!)

I don't really feel like talking about the animal birthing videos because every time I show one to someone they immediately become disgusted and never ask me things like "so, what do you do when you're not at work?" ever again. Actually now that I think about it this has served as a pretty decent man repeller also. I should just carry around an iPad on my shoulder like how guys in the 80's would carry a boombox, but just show this all the time.


Ugh God, fuck those birds, also.

The most amount of time I spend on the 'Tube (we're like that now) is spent watching women much younger than myself make fun, witty and interesting videos about ABSOLUTELY FUCKING ANYTHING. Watch you drunkenly dye your bangs purple? Sure! Dissect the contents of your purse? HOW DID I EVER LIVE WITHOUT YOUTUBE?! One of my favorites is Anna Akana. Something about her gently guided life affirmations offers me lessons in self-parenting emotionally developmental areas my own mother was just not available to give me, such as "how to apply liquid eyeliner" and "it's OK to not be ashamed of yourself every second of every day of your life."


3. COMMUNICATION. By this I simply mean, "the ability to say what I mean to another human person". Because before it was just a shit-load of this:


Just a bunch of verbal vomiting all over whomever happened to be around me at that moment. No sense of appropriate timing, no healthy boundaries, no willingness to take personal responsibility, just me, me me, how do we change you to fix me? That shit is exhausting (and it don't even work none, neither). Not looking at people as my enemy makes a world of difference.

(also grateful for the woman who nominated me in her post. she's helping me change my life. i love her. i'm lucky.)

That's it! Life is good. Work hard, be nice.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

even more things i still don't understand


1. Men's penis aiming. (<-- is there any other kind?)
OK, I just measured my face. It is sized, in inches, 7X5. I also measured the toilet in my bathroom, the part where the stuff goes in, minus the seat. The hole. The bowl! Duh, the toilet bowl, there's an actual name for it. STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS, YOU'VE DONE IT A-GAIN!! (pun definitely intended) Anyhow that, measured in inches, is 10X8.5. So, safe to say the toilet is in all ways larger than the face of an adult human woman. So how is it that a man can manage to cum on a woman's face with near surgical precision, like not a drop in the hair or on the neck or even the sheets, yet every time I go to use a public unisex bathroom I have to engage my quads until they are Jillian Michaels-levels of on fire in order to get my ass above the seat while at the same time avoiding the moat of piss surrounding the fucking toilet?


And don't even give me any bullshit about "it was an emergency". You don't tell me about emergencies! Enough with the shiver too, I know about the shiver! Besides, it's only pissing after all...

"you know how to pee, don't you? just point your dick, and go."


2. My decision making process. 
I sometimes feel self-conscious that this blog is way too personal, like I divulge far too much sensitive information about myself (and sometimes others) and I usually spend the last 45 minutes I'm awake at night wishing I didn't post whatever crazy shit I just shared with a couple hundred people. Sighhhh.....

So, but the other day I got garlic stuck in my vagina. I thought I sensed a yeast infection coming on, and I actually had the opportunity to use my sexy parts for sex that weekend (which NEVER happens anymore, you guys) and I was like "oh no vagina, you motherfucker, JUST ACT RIGHT!" I knew I wouldn't have time to get to a doctor, and the over the counter stuff takes days to remedy the situation, so I consulted the trusty internet for homeopathic alternatives in comforting my vaginal malady ("M'lady." *tips hat toward vagina). Several results came up suggesting I, for lack of a better term, shove some garlic up in thurr, and being the uninsured, sex-obsessed, underachiever that I am, it took me about, say...one second of contemplation before I found myself in the kitchen. My roommate brilliantly suggested I tie some string around it for easy retrieval "like how a tampon works", and other than my unshakable pizza cravings (mucous membrane, look it up), I didn't notice anything weird, and my symptoms were gone by the next morning. The following evening I was much less motivated-it was late, I was tired, and I justified why I didn't need to tie the garlic bulb with string this time with memories of smuggling several bottles of Xanax across the Mexican border in my helpfully secretive vagina suitcase.

"It'll be fine" I said.

The next morning, it was not fine. I won't get crazy into it, but long story short, I ended up on my back, using the tub as a gynecological table, my entire hand all the way in there, in a sweaty panic, 45 minutes late for work. I just kept pushing the clove further and further up, until it finally became lost in some secret compartment on the other side of my persons! That shit was gone, dude, it's like a mystery in there!!! (not actually mysterious at all, and I know I always talk about how I don't know shit about female reproductive parts, but will someone for real get me an anatomy textbook for my birthday already? Or at least text me a link to a WebMD page? No actually, I'll Google it myself, keep sending me money and balloons) I thought to Google "garlic lost in vag", and wouldn't you know, several results appeared for me to refer to, the most helpful being that I squat over the toilet and bear it out, which worked! So basically, I have experienced the miracle of birth, albeit an herb rather than an actual human person.

3. High heels. 
I’m not entirely sure what comes over me, but every so often I feel the need to buy some heels. I actually own several pairs, and each time I buy a new one I feel really hopeful and excited for about one hour, then immediately regret my impulsive purchase and question why I ever bought the damn things in the first place. Actually I know exactly why I buy heels, it’s because I have comically small, size 5 feet, so whenever I find a cute pair that fit me I take it as a sign that the Universe needs me in heels. This act of divine intervention has lead me to own several pairs of heels, all perfectly fitting and super adorable and NEVER WORN OUTSIDE OF MY APARTMENT (sometimes I get to feeling all Betty Draper and experiment with wearing my heels while I wash the dishes. It feels less “chores-y” and more “can I get you anything else, Mr. Pwees-i-dennt…?) So the last time I succumbed to my desire, I buy these heels and change into them before heading to the train on my way home from work and I immediately EAT SHIT all over the sidewalk, busting my knee while my face slammed into a gate guarding one of those ubiquitous check cashing places. That somehow wasn't the end of it though, as I continued to fall after I was already down, until I was lying on the ground, body contorted as if someone had put me out like a cigarette. The rest of my walk to the train was spent in my head "left, right, left, right, walking, walking, engage core, left, right...", and that's the story of how I often still wish I were born a man.

4. My "It's Log!" tattoo. 
I've gotten some pretty terrible tattoos in my day, some now covered, others now limited to the eyes of the guy who's doing me (or anyone at the beach I guess...damn! I didn't think about that, it's on my back, I always forget about it.) And to be clear, I actually don't hate this tattoo, I love Ren and Stimpy, I love the Log skit, but seriously dude? Tattooed? On your body forever? You are a grown woman, you work for yourself! I can't be certain, but chances are having this tattoo may be doing you a disservice when meeting a potential new client.

"What's that?"
"Oh, it's Log!"
"What's on it?"
"It's a marching band hat, it's marching band leader log!"


(blank stare)
"...GIVE ME THE KEYS TO YOUR APARTMENT, I'LL WALK YOUR PUPPY!!!"

5. Ferguson, Missouri. 
I actually had a really hard time writing this post as it feels even more juvenile and insignificant in light of what's going on in Missouri. I never really feel like I have the right to make political statements as I always feel unqualified to share my opinions, but I can say this: I feel angry. To witness such a blatant abuse of power, even from as far away as the safety of the internet allows me to remain, makes me really fucking pissed, and I feel stupid making jokes at a time like this. This is, however, all I really know how to do. If I was better at this I would make better jokes about cops and race and media and authority, but my brain just isn't wired like that. I'm sorry. I hope you laughed a little. And I hope as soon as you're done laughing you go right back to being pissed the fuck off and do what you can in your own way of doing things.

Because this is not OK.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Half Asian? More like half-agin’ AHAHAHA ehhh, jeez



I’m not sure how or when this happened, but somewhere along the way I got older than everyone. 

And I realize that when I look back and think on that statement when I’m 52 or 42 or even 33, I’ll probably be like “shut the fuck UP!!”, but as someone who used to be the youngest girl in the room, this is a devastating realization.

I was sitting in Union Square the other day waiting for a friend, who was late, as my friends usually are, but then again I’m often late myself so I can’t really get too upset about it (but I still totally do.) ANYWAY, there was this cute young girl with short green hair and a faded Fugazi shirt just effortlessly charming two or three idiot young dudes who 50% wanna fuck this chick and 50% just wanna go back home to smoke bongs and play Tony Hawk (←what?! fucking dated-ass Tony Hawk reference...), and I just remember thinking, “wait…I’m…I was…I used to be that girl…”, and away I was carried, tumbling downward into yet another endless spiral of what is commonly referred to as an existential crisis. 

i couldn't even begin to attempt to draw an anatomically correct representation of myself as WordPaint doesn't make a brush thick enough to capture the stacked-ness of my fucking huge dick. motherfuckers. 

I eventually snapped out of it and continued to sit in silence, eyes now affixed on the circle of Hare Krishnas who I just realized I am closer to in age than the sociological experiment that is “young people fraternizing” before me. If they let me get a word in edge-wise I would have more to talk about with them than my own peers, and nice try honey, but those kids are not your peers. Can’t accept that? Well why don’t you try making one WKRP in Cincinatti reference and just see what happens.

When I think of me, I still see the same 18 year old face I can always remember, although recent findings leave me to consider that everyone else actually sees me as “lady on the train.” I don’t even register as a sexual object to men of a certain age anymore, and by ‘men of a certain age’ I mean ‘16 year old boys’, which, at the risk of sounding like a sexually predatory embarrassment to my friends and family, THAT SUCKS!!! What the fuck?! Ever since I was old enough to want to do other people, the sound of skateboard wheels meeting concrete worked like a mating call, you have my rapt attention fellas, except now I look up toward that very familiar sound to witness a roaming horde of FUCKING CHILDREN! I mean these kids look physically small and everything! When did this happen? How am I the older person all of a sudden? When did I start obtaining all these old-people traits that include, but aren't limited to: 
  1. Audible sighing. I mean really loud, just “uhhhhhhhhh”, for no reason other than say, arriving at a cross walk, or sitting. 
  2. Refusal to attend live shows when I don’t think sitting may be a realistic possibility.
  3. Confusion surrounding the concept of “the cloud”. 
Because for as grown up as I apparently look, I still begin sentences with “because”, and cannot seem to grasp such adult concepts as: 
  1. Bringing lunch. I tried this earlier in the week. I ate all of my food within an hour of leaving my apartment.
  2. Owning a box of tissues. Toilet paper can be found in the place you can always find toilet paper. And it's the same fucking thing.
  3. Storing of important papers. They have to be somewhere, but...(shrugs) 

When I really think about it though, I wouldn't go back. Actually that is complete bullshit, I would go back in five seconds, but I have to say this and pretend I believe it or I'll end up one "alright, alright..." away from becoming this motherfucker: 


Really though, I was such a total shit-show of a mess until about…like, two weeks ago. Like, right now at this moment I feel good, but that’s subject to change at a Facebook’s notice. Generally though, I’m ten million times happier, healthier, more productive and more self-assured now than I’ve ever been before. I’m still insecure, but not as insecure. I still get jealous and catty, but not as jealous and catty. I feel like I look better-my body is stronger now, and I almost kind of have boobs, sort of (…no). Aging is actually treating me much better than I expected. All the fear that surrounded me as I headed toward 30 disappeared as soon as I actually turned 30 and realized I'm pretty much entirely the same, and maybe age really is just a number, in which case what was up with those 16 year old boys from earlier, though...

Perhaps the toughest part is reconnecting with old friends. Sometimes so much time passes that entire relationships and somewhat major life events get lost in recall; things that consume our entire being at the time become little more than a "and then this happened", and that let's catch up! conversation becomes a daunting recollection, with usually only the best and worst stuff making the cut.

So I'm not young anymore, but I'm not really old yet either, which kind of sucks as I've now fallen into that age bracket where acting like a totally inappropriate asshole will make you appear as just that, an asshole. People are no longer saying "damn kids" and have yet to refer to me as a "dumb old bitch", so I'm now left to look like a complete idiot as I collect my feeble paychecks for six months to pay for an out of contract iPhone with my community college-associated debit card instead of filling those two cavities from a million years ago, or pay my taxes (IRS, if you're reading this...that was a joke...*uses last of money on said debit card to purchase trench coat and glasses/mustache combo, leaves NYC for Mexico, never to be seen again.). 



Thursday, July 24, 2014

so this happened today




young man seated across from me on M train this morning: (blows kiss)

me: "Ugh...are you for real?"

him: (shrugs)
     
       "I just wanted to see if that still works."

me: "Does it ever work?"

him: "...no."
     
       "Did it work a little bit?"

me: "NO."

him: "Well, what does work?"

me: "I don't know? 'Hi' seems like a reasonable place to start."

him: "But everyone says hi."

me: "Actually, no one says hi. When men try to get a woman's attention they usually end up doing some ridiculous bullshit that just makes everyone uncomfortable."

him: "Well, you didn't look like the type of person who wants people to say hi to her."

me: "But I look like the type that wants kisses blown at her while reading on the train into work?"

him: (shrugs)

So today I learned that:

1. Men really are that fucking stupid.

2. I knew my hair looked cute today, gurl!

3. When you don't have a reason for doing something and someone calls you out on it, you can just be like






Tuesday, July 8, 2014

yeah, we just sit around and talk about our periods


I want to move out of NYC. 
I should move to Nashville. 
If I move to Nashville I'll definitely have to get a car. 
OK, so start saving up for a car...I really need to stop buying lunches in Manhattan, I spend so much money on that shit!
I'll have to find an apartment. 
I hope it's easy to find apartments that take dogs down there. 
Oh fuck, I need to get a job. 
Go on Craigslist and find a job. 
Wait, you need to clean up your LinkedIn profile and then the jobs will come to you!!
No one gives a shit about you. 
OK, so job, apartment, car--I can do this!
God I fucking hate my life. 
Does my Metrocard expire today?  

^^^^^^ all this shit happened in my head along the 10 minute walk my dog and I took before work today. 

When I get PMS absolutely NOTHING makes any fucking sense. At all. It is not uncommon to find me stealing my clients wifi to watch Bruce Springsteen videos on my phone while eating peanut butter straight from the jar when I should be working. PMS Krissy makes so little sense that her idea of bringing lunch to work this morning apparently began and ended at "carry a jar of peanut butter around in your purse." Think I'm exaggerating? 

I'm pretty sure "crunch time" is exactly what God is thinking when he looks down and realizes that this is where 32 years worth of life decisions has lead me.

The thing about PMS and me is that at least I can kind of see it coming, most of the time. I used to just act like a completely insane asshole for an entire week, then realize two weeks later that it was totally hormonal and have to apologize to everyone in my life. Just because I'm aware of it doesn't make it any easier to deal with though. I have come up with a declaration of sorts to help guide me through this difficult time. 

1. I will not quit my job. My first impulse to rid myself of all the terrible feelings that happen this week is always to quit my job and move the fuck outta town. I get really REALLY excited to start my new life and my thoughts begin picketing around in my brain. 

WHAT DO WE WANT?! 
TO MOVE SOMEWHERE ELSE, I DON'T REALLY HAVE A PREFERENCE, AS LONG AS IT'S WARM! BUT NOT FLORIDA!

But I quickly lose steam upon realizing I'll have to call all of my utility companies to cancel my services. 

WHEN DO WE WANT IT?!
...AH FUCK IT, I'LL JUST GO TO WORK. 

2. I will not shave my head. I'm not sure why "make drastic change to appearance that you WILL immediately regret" is always the go-to move for women facing a hormonal hijacking and/or ending of relationships, but this always always always seems like the best fucking idea I've ever had in my entire life, every single time. I don't do it because I know I'll just end up looking like my brother, not that there's anything wrong with my brother, but I am really small and a not-penis-having woman, so I don't really see it working for me.

3. NO TEXTING. I will not, under any circumstances, text the guy I've been talking to in an attempt to have even a remotely personal conversation about feelings or emotions or anything beyond "how was your day?", because despite my best intentions, that text will end up going from the slightly insane "I just think we have a really great connection and I think you're beautiful and I'm willing to be vulnerable again if you think you might be willing to give this a chance and...(etc..)" to the criminally insane "FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT, I'M NOT GONNA SUBJECT MYSELF TO YOUR FUCKING GAMES WHY DID YOU EVEN SAY HI TO ME IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE?!?!!!!" to the pathetic "I am so sorry dude, I am like, wicked PMSing right now, and I know you've only met me once and this probably seems kind of crazy but I'm not usually like this so just keep asking me questions that I can text you perfectly clever and witty responses to." Journal that shit or whatever you gotta do, but step away from the phone and just say no. 

It helps to know that I'm not (totally) insane, it's just my body being a dickface and trying to make me do things I will feel bad about in four short days. Having to operate in the world while having PMS is like that scene in A Nightmare on Elm Street where Nancy finally overcomes Freddy upon realizing that it's all a dream (even though it's totally not, because motherfuckers need sequels, duh!). But that's what it's like all week, constantly having to stand up to the little Freddy Krueger inside my vagina that wants to do terrible things to me and kill all my friends and my family and my dad is John Saxon, too. 

(for the purpose of these doodles PMS Freddy Krueger will be played by Pennywise the Clown, because Pennywise just makes way crazier faces and it looks funnier)


PMS: Why, hey there Georgie...I see you're on the internet, why don't you come down here a while? There's all kind of internets down here...

ME: Oh well I don't know mister, it's pretty late and I'm already feeling a little crazy...


PMS: Aww, come on Georgie, don't you wanna look at his Facebook photos? I can show you how to look at all the likes. Don't you wanna know who the fuck all these girls are?!

ME: Let go, you're...hurting...meeee...

PMS: And then we can go look at their pages, and figure how their lives are better than yours! And maybe you can see if he liked any of their photos,OR MAYBE YOU'LL SEE A PHOTO OF HIM LOVING ONE OF THEM!!!!!!

ME: NO! No mister, I don't wanna!!

PMS: Oh come on Georgie, it's only 1:15, it's not that late. You know you're all wound up on brownie flavored ice cream anyway, just give it a little peek. After we can look into applying to volunteer programs overseas that you'll only be interested in after having learned that your friend from 6th grade is doing an internship in Japan. 

ME: Get away from me, you're evil I tell ya, evil!!!!


ahaha but how hilarious is this drawing of me "running" though? I look like I'm doing the deepest lunge ever. 

I need to get a real job. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

what do you see when you see me?


When I was younger I used to dress in a way that outwardly represented my interests; at first sight you could pretty easily determine what music I was into, what my friends were probably like, what brand of shitty 40's I was stealing from the gas station-you could look at any part of me and tell that I was into punk rock. Either that, or you could pretty easily determine that you really wanted to yell things like "Halloween's in October, FAG!" from the open window of your passing 1992 Ford Probe.



Even if these assumptions were based solely on whatever limited stereotypes you may have had, you were pretty easily able to label me something or another (just don't label me late for dinn-ahh fuck that doesn't work at all, fuck!) These days I don't dress that way so much. I actually paid for my clothes (look ma, no slight of hands!) and they fit me, my hair isn't blue or red or green or pink, even though that seems to be really in style now among even the lamest of lame-o's, from Bedford Avenue to Park Avenue. Maybe I do still write on my shirts with Sharpie but there aren't green, OxyContin time-release coating stains on the bottoms of said shirts anymore, and I always wonder what people think of me now that they're able to make their own assumptions. What do you see? What judgements do you make based on what little information I'm providing you with my nondescript indicators of character? Which compartment do you stuff me in when my face registers in your brain and all of the 10 billion life experiences that color your perception flood your frontal lobes and deem me (________)? Can you see anything? Does any part of me show any part of you some vaguely recognizable trait, jarring a memory once vivid, now buried? Are you really looking? Can you tell, as you enter the train car, within that second of shared eye contact, just before immediately shifting your gaze to an empty seat, can you tell as I sit here that I am so full of love and want and preciousness; that I'm a real human person that could sink my nails in my skin and tear open my chest slowly, over phone calls and coffee, let you in to stretch your legs a bit, knock a few things around, take all the parts you'd like to use up while I consume you and hurt you and even let you hurt me back? Can you see that I'm on fire?

Who do you think I am?

OK, probably not that last part (note to self, stop writing by 2am at absolute latest), but still, I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and obviously who I am isn't determined by the Operation Ivy t-shirt I may or may not be wearing, but you know what I mean; I've certainly judged people based on way less (yeah, way to look over your receipt, asshole.) Lately I've been making a concentrated effort to expand my meditation practice, and something I was reading led me to an exercise on judgement. It asked that I try looking at people just for what they are-just another person-without judging them based on what they look like, what they're wearing, how they walk so fucking slow in front of you and yeah, the subway stairs-probably not the most considerate place to TEACH YOUR FUCKING BABY HOW TO WALK! That being said, not judging people is absolutely fucking impossible. I tried being grateful. I tried "seeing myself in others". I tried not to think about the fact that you're wearing a leather cabbie hat like that guy from AC/DC, and how much AC/DC sucks, and how this guy I dated a long time ago used to listen to AC/DC, and how much he sucks. Just doesn't work. Some people are too stupid not to judge. I was going to write this big long (hilarious) tirade about the types of people I judge and why, but I realized I've already done that on this blog at least once, proving yet again what a big angry bitch I am. I will say this though, realizing how harshly I judge those around me made me realize how hard I am on myself. How can I allow myself to fuck up, and make mistakes, and laugh whole-heartedly, and wear velvet leggings when I'm judging those around me for doing those same exact things? I don't give myself a chance to truly experience life when the fear of being judged prevents me from trying anything other than what I already know. I've heard that when we judge others we're really just witnessing some embarrassing, uncomfortable part of ourselves reflected back. Do I detest loud, attention-seeking groups of drunk girls because I used to be loud, attention-seeking and drunk myself? Yup. Perhaps the happy couples I find myself hate-watching through a cloud of ill wishes merely represent what I, myself, someday hope to have? One hundie percentie, my friends. "Come at me Bro" shirt-guy? Eh, maybe some people are just tools, but see, you're finally getting it you fucking idiot! When we begin to try accepting others at face value, meaning when we make an honest attempt to allow other people to be other people, everyone just doing their best to be humans sharing time and space with other, just doing their best, humans, and dispel the story we've created about them then we become better people than them, and what do better people get to do? Really, really judge the living shit out of everyone, and be right this time! Huzzah!!! I've solved life!!!





Monday, June 9, 2014

WEWANTFOOTBALL (new skit!!)


BIG NEWS you guys! My ship has finally come in, I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!

I know what you're thinking, and yeah, I guess we haven't known each other for all that long, but that half a city block I could feel him staring at me left me with enough time to know for sure-he's most definitely "the one"  !!!!

I didn't get a very good look at him, as I was being super shy, and taking every desperate measure possible to avoid any and all eye contact, but he smelled pretty drunk, probably on account of being so nervous about asking me for my name five times, and then my hand in marriage, before finally sending me off with an affectionate "fuuuuuck you!" (what did you think I was gonna say, no?! You're so crazy, boo, this is so "us".)

Springtime in New York really can be so romantic.

swoon

This skit was written with all those loving men in mind that just want us to smile, girl! That just wanna know where we're going, girl! That just wanna know if we got a man, girl! But who would never fuck with our ugly asses 'cause they have a girlfriend too, they just wanna use our number as friends, GIRL!

Written by myself and Anna Halpern, and starring us, along with Jodi Carrothers (of Laughing Buddha Comedy), and Josh Carrothers (of Earworms). Shot by Ian Burnley (of the Staten Island...Burnleys...?)

Seriously though, you look good, what's your name?



and also, "tease nuts" is my favorite thing about this.